To Readers Of Not Sent Letters (first letter after Thom and John Steinbeck)

Dear Friends,
You will not receive this letter in the morning. You know you will never receive it — and so I will preemptively answer you from my point of view (with this fundamental conundrum in mind).
First — If you are concerned about my love for this project — that’s a good thing — that’s about the best I can hope for. Don’t let me make it small or light to you.
Second — There are several kinds of strong feeling that I have for these not sent letters. One is a selfish, mean, grasping, egotistical thing which uses them for self-importance. These are the ugly and crippling feelings you are perhaps most concerned about. The other is an outpouring of everything good in me — a kindness and consideration and respect — not only a social respect of civility but a greater respect, a recognition of each person and possible self as unique and invaluable. That first feeling can make me sick and small and weak but the second releases a strength, courage and goodness, even a wisdom, that I didn’t know I had.
I don’t think you would ask me what I feel. You know better than anyone. What you want is to help me with what to do about it — and that I can tell you.  You should join me and we should glory in it for one thing and be very glad and grateful for it.  This object of such love is best when generating that kind of response. I want us to live up to it.
If you love these not sent letters too — and there is really no possible harm in saying so if you are unconcerned about perceived professional associations and their consequences upon your career aspirations etc— you must remember that some people are very shy and sometimes one must take that shyness into consideration.  Others will have a way of knowing or feeling what I feel, but they will most likely want confirmation, knowing of course that this project precludes it. It sometimes happens that what you feel is not returned for one reason or another (these not sent letters are no different) but that does not make your feeling less valuable and good.  If anything I hope this becomes clear to anyone that engages with this project over time.
Lastly, I know you know my feeling because you have it too (I wouldn’t be addressing you like this, in a letter I won’t send, if you weren’t).  I’m glad you have it.  Never worry about losing it.  If it is right, and surely this effort is not wrong, we will always feel this way.  The main thing is not to hurry. Nothing good gets away.
My love to you all,

jeremy